A reflection

And an apology / Y una disculpa.

"Ben, you are impossible. Your opinions have a slap in them for everyone who differs with you. They have become so expensive that nobody cares for them. Your friends find they enjoy themselves better when you are not around. You know so much that no man can tell you anything. Indeed, no man is going to try, for the effort would lead only to discomfort and hard work. So you are not likely to ever know any more than you do now, which is very little."

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"Ben, eres imposible. Tus opiniones son como una cachetada para quien difiera contigo. Tan es así, que ya a nadie interesan tus opiniones. Tus amigos van descubriendo que lo pasan mejor cuando no estás con ellos. Sabes tanto, que nadie te puede decir nada. Por cierto que nadie va a intentarlo siquiera, porque ese esfuerzo sólo le produciría incomodidades y trabajos. Por tal razón, es probable que jamás llegues a saber más de lo que sabes ahora, que es muy poco."

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And so, I apologize to my friends, I apologize to you / Y entonces, me disculpo con mis amigos, me disculpo contigo.

Little Girl

She followed me to this distant land
Resting of my fingertips,
In the palm of my hand.

- The mountains,
The sea,
The breeze,
Those comformting kisses -

While I broke free,
While I forgot.

Now she realeases herself,
Though slowly,
I see her wings begin to spread
Before me.

In the cool darkness everything will be alright

All the pretty colors
- Spots, lines, swirls -
Coming and going
Coming and going
Gone.

Blur - blur - blurry
Throb - throb - throbbing

Crippling blow
- After
Crippling blow
After -

Right, right, right
Always to the right

Head
Face
Neck
Shoulder

No sight
No sound
No smell

- No, please, no -

Despite all my rage

Stuck
Stale air
Stagnet water
- Trapped -

The walls have closed in
A rat in a race
- In a never ending maze -

I volunteered my own dimise
Willfully sold my soul,
I knew there was no talent to waste.

Count my blessings and end this.

Of what use is this rind
Unwanted, uninvited, not needed
Unwelcome
Consuming
Unnerving
Revolting

A let down
Always a disappointment

Finish it
Finish it off!

Burn it and scatter it to the wind!

Let it be lost
And no more hurt.